"TUESDAY, Oct. 28, 2014 (HealthDay News) -- Women who survive breast cancer face a higher risk of depression that can linger and require antidepressants, a new study finds." Kathleen Doheny
"Lingering feelings of sadness and anger can interfere with your daily life. For many people these feelings will dissipate. But for others, these feelings can develop into depression." www.mayoclinic.org
"Breast cancer survivorship, Weiss observes, is a marathon, not a sprint. That means learning to handle the symptoms that stick around after treatment ends, says Sloan-Kettering's McCabe," WebMD
As women, we are generally TO HARD ON OURSELVES. We want to be everything to everyone and still conquer the world all on our own. The children need a mother, tutor, driver... the husband needs a partner, a 'bed mate'... don't forget the food needs to be cooked, the house cleaned, the clothes washed... and along came cancer, who also decided to take something from us. It seems for some of us, the life of a woman is always to give, to bow, to submit... and we are doing it all on our own.
When you fought this disease and won, you became a survivor, yet, there were these feelings of anger and resentment for what you had to do/ to lose to become a survivor. For some, we even lost spouses, unfortunately... The kids don't really understand that you are 'different' now so they still NEED. Then, chemo brain steps in and the feelings of frustration are thrown into the mix. You are now back to work and the boss is a pain in the butt. Co-workers make you feel uncomfortable. Let's not forget the unpaid bills awaiting your attention, that you have no idea where the money will come from to pay...
This list can go on and on. Yes you are a SURVIVOR but there is this 'dark cloud' following you everywhere. A heaviness in you heart and head that make you wonder if it would not have been easier if you had simply died. YES I SAID IT. Some of us wish we had died.
THIS IS DEPRESSION, and YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
One of the reasons, these feelings tend to consume us is the fact that we refuse to talk about them. We feel ashamed so we don't want to talk about it. We apply our facade on mornings, the same way we apply our make-up or do our hair. We want everyone to see the strong SURVIVOR we are supposed to be, the SURVIVOR, who not only beat cancer, but got on with her life as though it never existed. But... is that strength?
When we pretend for the world, is it a demonstration of strength? When we fake affection for our kids and our spouses (because we are currently incapable of true warmth due to the depressive state we are in) is it strength?
TRUE STRENGTH is the ability to face your enemy head-on and FIGHT. I know you thought your days of fighting were over but they aren't. TRUE STRENGTH is acknowledging your weaknesses and fortifying them. TRUE STRENGTH is requesting help where it is needed (or simply wanted).
When you fought cancer and won, you DID become a SURVIVOR, you ARE a strong woman. DO NOT allow the disease you triumphed over to negatively control the rest of your life through lingering side effects such as depression. IT TOOK ENOUGH FROM YOU ALREADY. You asked for help then, you spoke about your symptoms and feelings then, SPEAK UP NOW!!!
Depression is no joke. Depression is nothing to be ashamed of. To be depressed does not mean you are ungrateful or unappreciative of your life. For YOU a breast cancer SURVIVOR, depression means that you fought a long and hard battle, it means that you lost A LOT, it means that you are HUMAN and you need support to cope.
TALK ABOUT IT. YOU ARE NOT ALONE!